Twist of Fate

my name is beautiful wolf. i am a lupus patient. i have had some difficult times when this constant campanion of mine devours my body but i keep going; many times i feel no reason to live on but then i think of my two lovely children on whom i have imposed my condition. i am pained with the thought that they suffered along with me. i wish they didnt have to. but lupus affects everyone i live with. i am sad that i have lupus and that there isnt much i could do to spare my loved ones the agony of seeing me transform into another person. there always is something to say about lupus and my coping experiences in dealing with this disease.  i wonder if anyone would care to listen. i would like to pour my heart out without fear of reproach.